poems in my mind today

And did you get what
you wanted from this life, even so?
I did.
And what did you want?
To call myself beloved, to feel myself
beloved on the earth.

Late Fragment, Raymond Carver

And also, Optimism, by Jane Hirshfield

More and more I have come to admire resilience.
Not the simple resistance of a pillow, whose foam
returns over and over to the same shape, but the sinuous
tenacity of a tree: finding the light newly blocked on one side,
it turns in another. A blind intelligence, true.
But out of such persistence arose turtles, rivers,
mitochondria, figs--all this resinous, unretractable earth.

lovely side-effect

of no coffee in my life for the last 5 days is the resurgence of my dream life.

After a long period of not dreaming while I sleep (or not having any recollection of dreaming), I'm suddenly having dreams, vivid ones, that I remember on waking. Like a silenced voice in me suddenly singing again......

I knew that caffeine depresses the sleep cortex of the brain for up to 10 hours after ingestion. It never occurred to me that it would deaden the dreaming function as well - although, on thinking about it, it makes total sense.