permission to suck

also known as "freedom to fail."

I so need to grant myself that right now. I'm having a week of what feels like running through a maze underwater, as I gear up for Migritude's Kenya tour, prepare to leave the US for Kenya for 6 months, flounder through contracts and budgets for touring the show in the US in 2008 . In addition to the drowning sensation, there's the constant running into dead ends, the encroaching panic of not getting things done, the escapes into distractions that only generate self-recrimination at more time wasted........

The bedrock beneath it all, of course, is the terror of Getting It Wrong. Making the wrong choice. Missing a piece of information. Losing money. Falling flat on my face. And the irony of it is, that if I just gave myself permission to fail, I'd get more done, failing at high speed, than I am right now, locked in a paralysis of doing nothing at all.