juggling acts - and retreat

In my ideal world, here's how I'd use my working time:

75% - making creative work
20% - direct political action
5% - business and admin.

In the real world, here's where my time goes:

70% - business and production
10% - outrage, agony, over the horrors unfolding in the world (hand-wringing does not equal political action)
15% - numbing out and distracting myself
2.5% - political action
2.5% - creative work

Which is why I'm going on retreat next week. To drop down into the place of no email, no phone, nowhere to run, limited ways to escape from the terrifying reality of just meeting myself, and my own mind, and the empty screen. And the real work.